Thursday, January 26, 2012

Tribulation en esprit

Sometimes I'm amazed by the things I ponder on and put to words in my journal. This is one I don't want to forget, that I learned while studying the scriptures:

"Tribulation en esprit" = " mind, labor in the spirit" -Alma 17:5

(I usually study the scriptures in French.)

While pondering this phrase, and reading it in context of people doing a really hard but really rewarding thing, I realized that this idea-- suffering and laboring in our minds and spirits-- is a good thing. When you really put your mind to thinking and growing and learning and expanding, this leads to a much greater you. I think some of what I've been doing lately is this--this struggle--trying to learn and understand the parts of human physiology, anatomy, functionality, and emotional response that I am faced with on a consistent basis. Battling within my mind and spirit to understand, to find, to define. Trying to find and define my purpose. I guess I think about it more, perhaps, because I know that there are things in my mental and reaction habits that I want to change.

I have worried that I was thinking too hard- worrying too much about things that others seem to just have figured out. But reading this scripture story I decided that this is really what defines us as humans- not just our experiences but how we deal with them in our minds, what we set up as beliefs and values in our very beings.      ...and that we do, in fact, set them up.

It is similar to schooling only in the fact that you use your brain. This is the schooling of life-- that you can't learn in a classroom. Things that have to be figured out individually, like a woman redefining who she is after having a  baby, like a man deciding to take on the role of provider, knowing it is a 30+ year commitment. It seems so simple for some people. But these are big decisions, big changes, scary.  And they are way different from those big decisions of choosing a university, a career, which internship to take, etc...

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Societal Prisons

I feel that our society has made a mistake. Lol, ok so we've probably made LOTS of them, but the one I want to mention today is about high school and teenagers.

What are we thinking keeping teenagers locked up in never-ending school-prisons!?!?! School is great, yes. They learn many important things, well that's the goal. But people that age have such potential for good, such enthusiasm for events, creating, helping, doing. Why do we confine their creative talents to the insides of a building? At that stage in their lives they are also so capable of doing. I don't know, but I think that society sees them as still incapable of taking care of themselves, so we lock them away until they are 'old enough'.

Excuse me?!?

The older I get, the more I realize that 'old enough' has nothing to do with age, and everything to do with mind and spirit. Sure there are teens who'd much rather stay close to home, there is nothing wrong with that. But why hold back the others for their sakes? Why not let our teens go off to Africa to do their part to save the continent? Why not let them go to South America and work in orphanages and build houses for 6 months or a year at a time? Why not let them follow passions of music or art or dance and learn young (instead of 3 years into university) that they have to go big or go bust? Why not let them live out their dreams of saving and helping the world, in the meantime learning so much about how the world works, and come back so much more capable of doing good in society than the sterilized brand we're graduating from our schools all across North America?

Why not?

Monday, January 23, 2012


Sardonicisim: Grimly mocking or cynical. Disdainfully or skeptically humorous.

Over the holidays I had several bouts of Sardonicism, and I apologize to anyone within my radius at that time. Believe me, it wasn't fun for me either. Life just dishes things out sometimes, and I realized later that this became my 'coping' tactic.