Saturday, February 25, 2012

Book List

I've been reading a lot...this is an attempt at a reconstruct of my brain-munching.

In France it was a lot of favorite stories translated into French and then many of the classics-- The Count Of Monte Cristo, Au bonheur des dames, by Zola, and others.

For the last nine months I've been reading on a much more informative level, which I never thought I'd enjoy, but I am loving it! I decided to attempt to reconstruct a list of the books I've read in the last 9 months. It isn't complete, but it's pretty good. And I guess it isn't ALL non-fiction. (And the list isn't in order of how I read them).

1. The Happiness Project
by Gretchin Rubin
This book changed my perception of life and happiness. I highly recommend it. I wrote three blog posts about it, but still have more I could say. The posts are HappinessFun and Money.

2. The Big Short 
Inside the Doomsday Machine
By Lewis, Michael
(Book - 2010) Enlightening on the topics of the crash of 2008, how Wall Street works, and how Wall Street, the banks, and consumerism created the crisis.

3. Boomerang 
Travels in the New Third World
By Lewis, Michael
(Book - 2011) Another enlightening read, if you're interested in why so many western nations are on the brink of bankruptcy. He discusses in length Iceland, Ireland, Greece, and California. His narrative style smooths over the difficulty of reading a financial book. I highly recommend it.

Thursday, February 16, 2012

My Peculiarities

It took a while of growing up to:
1. realize these peculiarities, and
2. to realize they are peculiar.

People can't see me if I don't look at them.
Pretty funny to think about now, but it was really true! I'm sure it grew out of my poor eyesight. I got contacts in 5th grade, and so from then on whenever I wasn't wearing them the world was fuzzy. Facial features and especially the eyes were out of focus, so never looking right at me.
I also have a hunch that this grew out of the adult-towards-children culture. I don't think adults acknowledged my presence very often as a kid- especially when I was with my mom on her errands. So I was just invisible. I came to expect it from the adult world. For that reason I try to always acknowledge the presence of children when I say hi to their parents.

Responsive Lying.
Have you ever...? Yes.
Even if I had never heard of that movie, that song, that city, that person... my answer seemed always to be "Yes." I really can't put my finger on why, but I have a few ideas. The happiest one is that I lived through the books I read. I HAD ridden a horse, climbed far-away mountains, been to a dance, won a medal, ect. Those experiences were all a part of my psyche, even if I hadn't lived them in the physical world. Another reason I think contributed to this 'peculiarity,' has to do with the pressures I felt of needing to have the right answer in order to please the asker, or to make them take the spotlight off me and continue on with their story, sort of ignoring me. At home sometimes, if I didn't have the right answer, or the answer that my parent thought was right, then I'd get in trouble. The pressure of having the right answer did not just come from peers and wanting to be cool, though I thought maybe that was it when I was a teen. No, I think there were more somber roots to that one, unfortunately. Honesty wasn't always as important as self-preservation. That is unfortunate. I hope to make people feel confident in honesty, especially children. Being confidently honest is still something I struggle with at times, especially when a question pops out of nowhere. But it is a freeing principle, to be honest.

Understanding the supernatural through Books.
Maybe that isn't so weird to some people. It is possible to live in completely different worlds- worlds that arguably don't exist. But to me, they exist. I feel like the fairytales I read helped me to grasp and accept an un-seeable God and a world that doesn't exist to the naked eye.  But one that exists in great detail, to me.

I'm sure I have many other peculiarities... but that's all for now!

Monday, February 6, 2012

Life's Paradoxes

Paradox: Similar to circular reasoning, a paradox is a logical statement or group of statements that lead to a contradiction or a situation which (if true) defies logic or reason. (Wikipedia)

I used to want to get out and away so badly. I dreamed of everywhere and anywhere but where I was. I couldn't wait to spread my wings and fly. Away. 

Away is overrated

I wouldn't change a second of my time in France, it truly was a dream come true. But really, not very real-life-ish. Back in "real life," I'd do things differently.  I'd have my older sister living across the backyard, my older brother down the street, my younger brother and his awesome wife next door. My younger siblings near enough to try out 'company dinners' on them and watch movies together. I'd have my family close. I used to want to get away. How ridiculously paradoxical. 

What has modern technology made of us!?! Families never see each other anymore, people spend more time on email/facebook/virtually anything virtual than talking in real life.

I'm very grateful to be close to my in-laws, it is good to have at least some family close by. But that doesn't seem to stop the wrenching tugs in my heart for my sisters, my brothers, my dad's hugs, my mom's enthusiasm.

Robots ARE taking us over

It starts with Email.

Then multiple emails. 





I don't know about anyone else, but this just seems to be getting ridiculous. And I'm starting to get worried I'll forget all the places I have a profile...


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And YouTube