Paradox: Similar to circular reasoning, a paradox is a logical statement or group of statements that lead to a contradiction or a situation which (if true) defies logic or reason. (Wikipedia)
I used to want to get out and away so badly. I dreamed of everywhere and anywhere but where I was. I couldn't wait to spread my wings and fly. Away.
Away is overrated.
I wouldn't change a second of my time in France, it truly was a dream come true. But really, not very real-life-ish. Back in "real life," I'd do things differently. I'd have my older sister living across the backyard, my older brother down the street, my younger brother and his awesome wife next door. My younger siblings near enough to try out 'company dinners' on them and watch movies together. I'd have my family close. I used to want to get away. How ridiculously paradoxical.
What has modern technology made of us!?! Families never see each other anymore, people spend more time on email/facebook/virtually anything virtual than talking in real life.
I'm very grateful to be close to my in-laws, it is good to have at least some family close by. But that doesn't seem to stop the wrenching tugs in my heart for my sisters, my brothers, my dad's hugs, my mom's enthusiasm.